i should be studying company law, but i come across the article that states that the singapore is considering the possibility of schools teaching chinese in english. i think that this is a total joke. even though i studied chi lang and lit during jc, i always thought that the A grade that i gotten from a levels does not reflect my ability in chinese at all. for one thing, i think that the chi being taught in school is only at a very superficial level. our std of chinese has always been limited to the zaoju and the 250 idioms that are memorised to heart by the local students. and tt's all. so i really cant imagine what our standard of chinese will be in years down the road if what's said is really being implemented.

 

Sometimes, i think it's precisely of the policies that the goverment implemented that results in the dwindling standard. i came from a chi-speaking family, and i admit there was difficultly in grasping the english language when i went to school. and i believe this is still a problem for many children from the lower income families. so, does it mean that we are going to have a education system that segregates them in the future? there's no one mtd to teach the whole population, so perhaps in the future we should teach these students english in chinese and those weak in chinese in english? this sounds ridiculous.

my brain is a running tap-.-

whatever goes in flows out.

 

anw one interesting fact from my sociology elective "The surest and easiest way to get rich is to born rich"

and overnight riches is an absolute myth.! haha they are really written on the notes!

 

gambate!

went to extract my wisdom tooth today, actually it was a really spontaneous decision!

my gums has been swelling for the past week, so decided to book an appointment at the sch clinic.

happened that nobody was in the clinic, so managed to see the dentist straight away.

so the dentist told me that my wisdom tooth was protruding horizontally, so suggested extracting.. otherwise the inflammation will cont.

initially i was rather reluctant to extract it, cause i cant stand ath to do with the mouth. i have horrible memories from those tooth extraction during my braces' days!

in the end i still agreed to the extraction, cause the inflammation was rather painful anw. but but i totally forgot abt enquiring the price!!!

so i got a big big shock when the nurse told me to pay 330 bucks! luckily, when the dentist asked me whether to extract the upper wisdom tooth, i rejected thinking that the pain of extracting both will probably kill me. but to think of it now, i guess the pain probably wont kill, but the price tag wld definitely kill me. imagine the shock that i wld have if i extracted both which wld have cost a huge bomb of nearly $700!!!!

 

hai. my one mth tuition pay just bade me gdbye alrd!真是还钱买罪受! stupid wisdom tooth. how oxymoron.

next week still need to go remove the stitches, probably do some cleaning up too. recently i had those horrible dreams of mouth of decaying teeth.

 

anw exams coming in another 2 weeks time. this term seems to be like a fast-fwd video, everything seems to happen in a flash. even though the workload is v heavy at times, somehow i dont want sch to end so soon too. haha Man just can never be satisfied.

 

to myself, 아 자 fighting! you can do it!

either my weighing scale got a problem or all the stress is really taking a toll on my me.

Rah, the mipi essay really driving me nuts!!

Rah. fb = headache. I was never a frequent user of fb but im now scrutinising its terms and conditions to dig for loopholes tt support my essay. how ironic><

and my drive to perform has been dwindling, my attention span narrowing too.

seriously need to concentrate to get past the next two wks!

아자!

after attending MIPI, im suddenly aware of the numerous breaches that i've committed.

haha so i've decided to remove those albums ):

I think my stress tolerance very much mirrors my pain tolerance.

For some reason, i decided to go pull out the 新谣 cd that meng burnt it for me last time.

How time flies, i still rmb us gg to kinokuniya together to buy the cd, when we were still in our hong zi.

I think the songs exude a sense of simplicity that helps to calm nerves.

Sometimes, i think watching others smile offers greater joy than being the one smiling.

Was having a msn convo with mogu just now, and she commented that she told dulong about how she came to know me.

That i was her longest known and still kept in close contact friend, really gave me a warm and fuzzy feeling.

Haha yeah we have sort of grown up tog, witnessed changes in each other, but nevertheless still remain close at heart.

We've grown close to others, perhaps closer to others than to each other, but the best thing is our friendship never ceases.

To me, real friendship can never be lost, for if it can, then perhaps the two were never true friends in the very first place.

They were rather just two ppl who cross paths due to chances in life, but move on when the chances are not there anymore.

True friends cross paths because of the chances in life, move on, but will always retrace their steps to find each other.

The feeling of how u can pick up from wherever u left during the last conversation, the real distance in life is never that important.

I am really glad to have such friends, people u know who will never leave no matter when and where (:

 

to say the truth, i have never experienced any major setbacks till date.

perhaps cause i've never tried hard enough to experience any.

i was always in my comfort zone, sheltered area, satisifed.

so now tt i've tried and failed, im still not used to the feeling yet. perhaps cause it's all too new to me.

it makes me reflect and question my capabalities. not tt they are any major setbks either.

was it beacuse i was not capabale or tt others are too capable?

it does make a difference to me.

but at least like i've said, it's better to have tried and regret, than to not have tried and regret.

yes, at least i have tried. and so i can move on.

 

anw, i think swimming alone is very much like eating alone.

haha cause i like to eat and i love the water, alone or otherwise, i always find much pleasure in them(:

 

have been slacking around for quite a lot these days. and just when i have adapted to this slow-pace lifestyle, school is restarting again soon! i used to be envious of those working and was uneasy about the fact that i was pretty much lazing around. everyone appears to be bz and working, which is the norm. being me, i didnt like the idea of not being within the norm. haha, but now im pretty much accustomed to this slow-pace life, and im still liking it! tuiton on 135 helps me to be of some usefulness, and the rest of the days are either occupied by outings or just staying at home. the new harry potter movie rekindled my interest in the series so i have just finished reading the last book again! it's the only series that can have me glued to it from morning till night =D and im now looking for new piano scores online too. perhaps due to the absence of a working printer at home for ages, i have never tried to look for piano scores online. and so it just occured to me that i should do it now! my piano is collecting quite a bit of dust alrd and i finally have a working printer at home. hopefully it can stay this way for long! technology and me kinda repel each other! and i discovered a great site online tt can download quite many lovely piano scores! pretty excited to learn them after printing them out. yupps and im now building those wooden 3D puzzles again^^ yupps to sum it up, im now leading a rather routined and slack life! i like routines and slow-pace suites me fine, so everything pretty good for now.

 

hmm. suddenly reminded of the what's my passion question during the interview. i've gave a rather feeble and weak answer then, perhaps cause i did not answer from my heart then. i guess the most truthful answer is that i dont have one. sometimes, i think the line between passion and talent is rather blurred. it appears to me that those with passion equates to exceling in it. probably cause they put their heart and soul, and devote lots of time in it. no, i dont have a passion in my life, yet. only interests at the most for now. i like to play the piano, but i never even pass grade 2 exam. i like to swim, but i only know the breaststroke. i like learning different languages, but i s/u-ed my korean because i never studied in it! perhaps tt's why i was stumped by the question during interviw. my interests have never been too good to be labelled as passion.  but how? this is just who i am, so let's move on.

 

this space is filled with entries that are low-spirited, cause i usually write only when im unhappy. so hopefully this entry can brighten it up a bit!

let's enjoy the rest of the hols! cause this will be my last longest hols till i retire or when im unemployed! oh. this sounds pathetic. i should strike it out.

haha! cheers!

长大后, 渐渐发觉还是家的感觉最好.

因为长大后, 待人处事往往都需要技巧.

我不擅长, 也许因为EQ 不太好.

但我也不懂得拒绝, 也许是不懂的如何处理拒绝后的场面.

也许是不想打破长年来所塑造的nice的形象.

所以, 别人对我的comments,总是如"很nice", "很随和" 等等.

好听是随和, 但更正确的应该是没性格.

有人说过,我没否认.

不喜欢, 我可能会说还可以.

不开心, 我可能还是笑着度过.

 不要是要, 要是不要, 有时还真是傻傻分不清.

唯有在家, 我才能做回最真实的自己.

也许是卸下防戒心吧.

nice或不nice, 我懂我会通通被包容.

对他们来说, 我就是我, 不需要任何理由.

silent night, except for the radio music in the background.

actually i on the radio just to soften the deafening silence, which can be rather eerie at night.

went out with meng in the afternoon to catch up and we both had good buys at the end of the day(:

i realised when i went out shopping with my friends, it's basically just chatting while walking aimlessly ard.

sometimes, we dont even enter any shops. to say the truth, im really not a shopping person.

i will usually go check on a thing for a few times, make sure tt it can make me like it everytime i went, before i finally decided to buy.

perhaps cause im not a love at first sight, but rather a ri jiu sheng qing person? haha.

yeah anw we end up sitting in front of the high-end, expensive looking perfume shop to chat(:

i didn't know tt it a promotional technique to spray perfume into the air to attract unknowing customers! but i must say it's a rather effective mtd! customers came streaming in after a few sprays at the entrance of the shop!

anw we chatted a lot, of  how life is now and also the future.

i think my life now, and i dont need to be a fortune teller to know tt my working life in another few years to be is anything but happening.

haha a little secret of mine, sometimes i feel a bit down and empty after reading others' blogs.

their lives are so colourful that it makes mine paled in comparison. void of the dreams, talents, events.

no i shoulden't say it is void, just tt my dreams dont seem big as theirs, my talents dont seem as brilliant as theirs, and my events, daily mundane ones, are definitely not as happening as theirs.

so sometimes..

perhaps, it's due to the silent night now.

 

 

im currently reading corner shop by Roopa Farooki, whiling away the last 30 minutes of my 19th. it's been some times since i read books other than those that were forcefully thrust to me in my first year of accountancy. No, i don't dislike my course, i just dont like the way we are forced to read the textbook; scrutinising the text for all the various concepts, the leisure and pleasure of reading just simply evaporates. Throw me a text and a bed to snuggle in, it's more effective than any sleep-inducing drug. just finished reading angels and demon, i prefer it to the davinci code. the book was exciting and it amazes me even more when i flipped to "The Facts" page after reading the book. it intrigues me in the the way he created fiction from facts.

 

...

 

I think as I get older, the excitement of birthday reduces over the years.  I still remember when i was young, i used to count down excitedly to my brithday, weeks before the actual day. Haha now i realises it only when other people reminded me.

13 yr old cousin: Heys Happie 20th bdae! twenty. haha

Me: Thanx a lot!

13 yr old cousin: welcome. twenty is old.

Me: I know that -.-

13 yr old cousin: Glad you know. but still, Happy birthday!

 

yeah i agree, 20 sounds a big difference from 19. 25 sounds older and at 30, i think ppl will start calling me aunty. not the truth though, cos even now, my neighbour's kid always calls me aunty even though her grandma always try toemphasis tt it is jiejie. and kids are suppose to be those that dont tell lies, aren't they?

 

yep my birthday was v normal. went to have a swim w xinyi in the morn, lunched at delifrance before heading for tuition. made sushi after that, before heading home for dinner. so this basically sums up the day. yet at the end of the day i still dont feel any difference from ytd when i was still sweet 19.

u don't call it sweet 20 anymore isn't it?

 

 

I think there's a serious agency problem between  me and my brain. Being RAM, it just cant make the law facts stay permanent in my brain.

i've been depriving it of the necessary entertainment and rest.

do i owe it a duty of care?

 

i think it must be due to stress. haha.

today was a pathetic day. even though it sounds romantic to walk in the rain, well at least not when its raining cats and dogs and there's an umbrella over ur head. imagine racing across the street with slippers that continously lag behind ur steps, meaning running fwd 3 steps and jogging back 2 steps to retrieve the slippers. well its an exaggeration, but tt's basically what happened in the middle of the road junction. well, at least there's no car that was crashing ard. basically i've given up running in the end, cos what the diff btw drenched and drenched. sigh, i dont want to whine but it's getting really tiring these days. all the projects tutorials and tests just keep piling up. especially IT project. well, if there's any epiphany from IT, it must be tt i finally realised and cfm my dislike towards it. i really dont see the link btw IT and accounting?! anw thought i always complain bout tuition, i do feel a sense of satisfication when i help them to understand an alient theory/concept.

 

I think that 2008 has been a rather fufilling and fruitful year! I have had many new experiences(:

 

1. I made a last min decision in just one day to fly to U.S on my own

2. I toured many new states in the U.S, : Maryland, Vermont, Arizona, San Diego, Las Vegas. Virginia, Washinton D.C

3. I went to Canada, and experience the most freezing temperature of -14 degrees, and snowsqualls too!

4. I learnt skiing!

5. I went to work for first time at stelop! not considering previous temp work, cos this the first time i went to look for one on my own.

6. I went Hong Kong with my relatives(:

7. I went thailand admist the chaos, on the day the airport reopened!

8. I've just completed my first sem at NTU accountancy! The results are not fantastic but satisfactory. will try my best for the even more gruelling sem 2!

 

I love travelling and i really did travel a lot this year(: 2008 has definitely been a great year of new experiences and fond memories! 

I guess 2009 will be back to a more expected one of studying.. But still, i have some new year resolutions tt i hope to fufil.

For one, I hope to be able to conquer my fears and any difficulty that comes along!

 

Goodbye 2008! <3

 

 

 

 

for some reasons, i really do miss them a lot today.

perhaps due to the rather long chat w jolene today,

the sms-es with meng

or the short phone call w liyou

we will be meeting soon(: