have been slacking around for quite a lot these days. and just when i have adapted to this slow-pace lifestyle, school is restarting again soon! i used to be envious of those working and was uneasy about the fact that i was pretty much lazing around. everyone appears to be bz and working, which is the norm. being me, i didnt like the idea of not being within the norm. haha, but now im pretty much accustomed to this slow-pace life, and im still liking it! tuiton on 135 helps me to be of some usefulness, and the rest of the days are either occupied by outings or just staying at home. the new harry potter movie rekindled my interest in the series so i have just finished reading the last book again! it's the only series that can have me glued to it from morning till night =D and im now looking for new piano scores online too. perhaps due to the absence of a working printer at home for ages, i have never tried to look for piano scores online. and so it just occured to me that i should do it now! my piano is collecting quite a bit of dust alrd and i finally have a working printer at home. hopefully it can stay this way for long! technology and me kinda repel each other! and i discovered a great site online tt can download quite many lovely piano scores! pretty excited to learn them after printing them out. yupps and im now building those wooden 3D puzzles again^^ yupps to sum it up, im now leading a rather routined and slack life! i like routines and slow-pace suites me fine, so everything pretty good for now.

 

hmm. suddenly reminded of the what's my passion question during the interview. i've gave a rather feeble and weak answer then, perhaps cause i did not answer from my heart then. i guess the most truthful answer is that i dont have one. sometimes, i think the line between passion and talent is rather blurred. it appears to me that those with passion equates to exceling in it. probably cause they put their heart and soul, and devote lots of time in it. no, i dont have a passion in my life, yet. only interests at the most for now. i like to play the piano, but i never even pass grade 2 exam. i like to swim, but i only know the breaststroke. i like learning different languages, but i s/u-ed my korean because i never studied in it! perhaps tt's why i was stumped by the question during interviw. my interests have never been too good to be labelled as passion.  but how? this is just who i am, so let's move on.

 

this space is filled with entries that are low-spirited, cause i usually write only when im unhappy. so hopefully this entry can brighten it up a bit!

let's enjoy the rest of the hols! cause this will be my last longest hols till i retire or when im unemployed! oh. this sounds pathetic. i should strike it out.

haha! cheers!

长大后, 渐渐发觉还是家的感觉最好.

因为长大后, 待人处事往往都需要技巧.

我不擅长, 也许因为EQ 不太好.

但我也不懂得拒绝, 也许是不懂的如何处理拒绝后的场面.

也许是不想打破长年来所塑造的nice的形象.

所以, 别人对我的comments,总是如"很nice", "很随和" 等等.

好听是随和, 但更正确的应该是没性格.

有人说过,我没否认.

不喜欢, 我可能会说还可以.

不开心, 我可能还是笑着度过.

 不要是要, 要是不要, 有时还真是傻傻分不清.

唯有在家, 我才能做回最真实的自己.

也许是卸下防戒心吧.

nice或不nice, 我懂我会通通被包容.

对他们来说, 我就是我, 不需要任何理由.